I´m in a slump, and it´s really taking all of my strenght, I have no energy for anything else than being depressed about the fackt that I just can´t draw.

Ugh, I also haven´t eaten anything today, have gotten so angry to my friend, that I said bad things to her and left from the messenger before she could say anything back...
And yeah, and I had a hearattack because Hiyorin singed about yuri, and I was like "WUUUTT???!!! O______O" 
But when you really think about it, it makes sense.

I´m going to go ask my mom, if she could phone in the people´s high school.

Oh fuck, is it snowing again?

 You know... As Finnish (or if you understand finnish) you have to be constantly ready to feel ashamed.
Finnish music is probably the worst you can get, of course if you understand it. 
Oh come on, think about it!
Teräsbetoni!??!!!!  reinforced concrete?! 
Think about how sad it is that room full of people have thought that is a good name for a band.

But still... Come to think of it, almost all of Finnish bands are pretty much a joke... Like Riku Avanto (I feel sick just saying the name...)

I think I´m going to move in America tomorrow...  (Even that isn´t as embarrassing than being a Fin...)

*bows*

 It´s over. 
Been there, done that.
Finito.
Never again.

Middle school is over.

Felt weird sitting in the school for last time, talking about shoes with Cassy, and giggle like an idiot xD
But it´s good, it felt right, and... I think this is the "new beginning" of my life ^^

*bows*

Lol, am I realy this bored, or am I just angry to myself?
I´m reading ankkalapio. (Webcomic, I promised that I wouldn´t read it anymore about two moths ago.)

No offense, but reading the comic makes me feel like that I really am a jerk, because I can relate to her...
Good god, I am a jerk.

Still...



You said it girl.

*bows*

 Lol, I´m talking with my ex´s new girlfriend xD
This is so ironic!!!! I have been swimming in my selfpity like a half year now, but I´m like a new person, and she sounds as miserable as she was then. 
xDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

IN YOUR FACE BITCHHHHHHHHHHHH~!!!!!!!!

Victory is best when served cold!! xD

Oh my god, I hardly ever think bad things about anybody, I get teased at school, but I think they are just teasing me, because they feel bad, and I don´t!
But, about her... It´s REALLY hard to think of anything good.
Seriously, she´s the most crooked, disgusting, and emotionaly violent person who I have ever met. (And come on! I know people who are nazi´s! (I´m not, and I don´t want to be.))
Oh god bless me, I think I´m ready to be free again. xD

Yeah, so I´m listening Lemon Demon´s - I´ve got some falling to do, this fits this situation so perfectly!
I can´t stop laughing xD I don´t think I have laughed this badly since my old internet pal said "It´s poisoned anyway" when my other friend gave him chocolate.

Now, I´m going to show you why it fits!

Lemon Demon - I´ve got some falling to do.

In an airplane, I was flying.
Just a flight attendant guy.
I can be clumsy, and I stumbled
out the door, into the sky.
Now I am falling through the air.
Wind and regret flow through my hair.
All I can do right now is stare down at the ocean.

Suddenly, there's a ring in my cell phone.
 I pick it up.
It's the Angel of Death, and he says "Wazzup?"
I say, "What is it this time?"
And he's like "Well, hello, goodbye, I'll see you in Hell."
He can be like that sometimes, he's such a nut.
So I snicker and say, "I'd love to, but
gravity's calling, I've got some falling to do."

I'm in a state of shock, but it's nothing new.
I guess it all depends on your point of view. It's true.

This is boring... Yes, I'm falling,
but it's taking quite a while.
My destination is impending.
Might as well go out in style.

I put my arms out to the skies,
whistle a tune and close my eyes,
trying to briefly realize perpetual motion.
Suddenly, giant tentacles rise from the open sea,
and with total precision they lasso me.
It's a monstrous squid and he saved my life,
but I am too freaked out to be nice.
So I tell him the truth, that I'd rather fall.
No offense but at least it's predictable.

Gotta stop stalling, I've got some falling to do.
I'm probably gonna die, but it's nothing new.
I guess it all depends on your point of view. It's true.

Love it.

*bows*

There are too many show´s in TV, I don´t have time see all of them  

 I have always wondered why is it so hard for me to read Diane Duane´s "So you want to be a wizard."

I realised that it´s because I start crying so bad already in the first pages, because I understand Nita, and I want those things to be real so badly it hurts ^^'

But yeah, I had a presentation in my extra english class today. (I made it about Tony DiTerlizzi.) I think it went very well, thought I had to leave the paper there.
I made in this huge red carton, and put four of his drawings there, and in the end I kinda felt like it was my baby xD
I fell in love with it so badly, I think that even after all of those good grades and such I will strangel my teacher if don´t get it back. 
Just kidding, she´s okay, but I really want to put that self-made-poster in my room.

Well, that about it, bye!

*bows*

Panic! at the disco - Theres a good reason these tables are numbered honey, you just haven´t thought it yet. (god, that a long title...)

Please, leave all overcoats, canes and top hats with the doorman.
From that moment you'll be out of place and underdressed.
I'm wrecking this evening already and loving every minute of it.
Ruining this banquet for the mildly inspiring and...

Please, leave all overcoats, canes and top hats with the doorman.
From that moment you'll be out of place and underdressed.
I'm wrecking this evening already and loving every minute of it.
Ruining this banquet for the mildly inspiring and...

When you're in black slacks with accentuating, off-white, pinstripes
Whoa, everything goes according to plan.

I'm the new cancer, never looked better, you can't stand it.
Because you say so under your breath.
You're reading lips "When did he get all confident?"

Haven't you heard that I'm the new cancer?
Never looked better, and you can't stand it

Next is a trip to the, the ladies room in vain, and
I bet you just can't keep up with, (keep up) with these fashionistas, and
Tonight, tonight you are, you are a whispering campaign.
I bet to them your name is "Cheap", I bet to them you look like shh...

Talk to the mirror, oh, choke back tears.
And keep telling yourself that "I'm a diva!"
Oh and the smokes in that cigarette box on the table,
they just so happen to be laced with nitroglycerin.

I'm the new cancer, never looked better, you can't stand it.
Because you say so under your breath.
You're reading lips "When did he get all confident?"

Haven't you heard that I'm the new cancer?
Never looked better, and you can't stand it

Haven't you heard that I'm the new cancer?
I've never looked better, and you can't stand it

Haven't you heard that I'm the new cancer?
I've never looked better, and you can't stand it

And I know, and I know, it just doesn't feel like a night out with no one sizing you up.
I've never been so surreptitious, so of course you'll be distracted when I spike the punch.

And I know, and I know, it just doesn't feel like a night out with no one sizing you up.
I've never been so surreptitious, so of course you'll be distracted when I spike the punch.

And I know, and I know, it just doesn't feel like a night out with no one sizing you up.
I've never been so surreptitious, so of course you'll be distracted when I spike the punch.


*bows*

 My brother is watching ice hockey with his friends in the livingroom.
I don´t really understand this finnish attitude towards hockey. For some reason they all love it so much... ?
Maybe it´s just because I don´t like watching sports from the tv.

Ah, tired... I just took a shower, even thought the time is one o'clock in the evening...

I should be telling my psychiatrist that I don´t need therapy anymore.
I´m like a new person, and I think it´s waste of my time if I go there without a reason.
But I just feel sorry for her, because she like´s me a lot and is fond pf me... It´s horrible to think I have to say to her, that I don´t think it´s no use for me to come anymore... 
And actually even want to say that.
I have always hated to say something awkward before somebody else.
Because I´m ALWAYS the one who notice´s at first that things aren´t working.

So even thought I had this big shock today 'cause I saw this kid who had long blonde hair and first thing I could think of was exorcist, I mean Regan, the posessed girl in the movie. You know how it feels when you see someone who looks just like you're old friend, who isn´t really anymore part of your life/has passed away/has dissappeared or something like that...
Well it kinda felt like that... 
I didn´t like it.

*bows*